活在旋律中，我的音乐人生，烙印在这音符的日记。

        I awoke to find myself alone. It took me a full minute to realize this fact. A disaster happened in my life. My wife and my son died in an accident. I suffered from insomnia and I had to take two capsules of pills to avoid myself from thinking too much. People told me that life is controlled by fate and I accepted this fact. When I opened my eyes, I returned to reality. There was no one else besides me.

        After I got dressed, I drove to the hospital without my breakfast. I still had to sign some agreements. Next, I went to a lawyer firm. No doubt, I did get some money but money can’t buy life. Besides, I had to order coffins and organized funerals for them. I found out that I lived in a cruel world. I wanted to forget about the death of my family but I was still reminded by the aftermath. However, I became numb and my tears had dried. I couldn’t feel the pain anymore.

        Later, I arrived at my wife’s office. I had to inform them about the sad news. Some of them cried. They couldn’t believe that such an accident pulled her apart from life. So do I. When I got back home, I had to call her families, relatives and friends to inform them the date of the funeral. I could hear the shaking of their voices.

        After chewing the last bite of my dinner, I went to their rooms to clean up their stuff. I packed up their belongings into boxes. Suddenly, a diary fell off. I opened it and read it. I recalled the wonderful memories. I heard a phone call. I wished it didn’t ring. I rushed to hospital without hanging up the phone. Two persons got killed in a car crash and both of them are my beloved.

        Later on, I went back to my bed. My house was filled with loneliness. I couldn’t get sleep again. When will it end? There were no ranges of my sadness. I got up from bed again to swallow two capsules of pills again. When I woke up the next morning, how will I feel? How long would it take to realize this fact, as I called, nightmare again the next day?

" I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from  "

Inside your heaven

Carrie Underwood