活在旋律中，我的音乐人生，烙印在这音符的日记。

“Life is a journey, it had started since the day mother gave birth to us and it will end when Death finds us. In between, we might have to go through a lot. But then, we still can’t give up because there is still a hope somewhere.”

            Alex takes his belongings at the Baggage Claim Area at the Yellowknife Airport. He is supposed to meet with someone. He looks around but not to look for the person, this is his first time at there, so he doesn’t want to miss anything. In a sudden, one voice appears at his back.

Voice# - Excuse me, sir? Are you Mr. Alex Fendin?

            Alex turns his head and see an almost bald, 40s something man standing. He nods his head and shakes hand with him.

Voice# - Nice to meet you, sir. My name is Samuel Coller, from Blachford Lake Lodge & Conference Resort. Well, the ski-plane is ready. I think we should be going now.

            Alex walks guide by Samuel to the ski-plane. It takes about 20 minutes to reach the resort. On the plane, Alex gets a nice greeting from Samuel.

S – Mr. Alex, are you first time being here, the Northwest Territory ?

A – Yup, but…can you just call me Alex, the Mr. title totally doesn’t fit me.

S – Ok. Well, Blachford is the only full season lodge and conference centre in the vicinity of Great Slave Lake. We have lots of activities here such as fishing, hiking trails, canoes, hot tub spa during summer and ice-fishing, dog mushing, hockey skate when winter’s here. I’m sure you will have a good time here. Of course, you don’t want to miss the winter Aurora watching.

A – Aurora?

S – Of course. Blachford has virtually no light pollution and winter is the best time to view those spectacular Auroras. Some of the best Northern Lights can be seen in the early winter.

A – That’s why I’m here. I’m searching for the light of hope.

            Alex looks outside the window. He chose to leave all the haunted old memories behind. He wants to start his life again. He knows Yellowknife NWT is the best place for him to start all over again. Aurora Borealis is the starting point for him.

Life is a journey,

No matter what had happened in the past,

There’s still a long road for us to walk,

No matter what, there’s still a second chance,

And,

A happy ending lies in the end….

OT: Avril Lavigne - I’m With You

I’m Standing on a bridge
I’m waiting in the dark
I thought that you’d be here by now
There’s nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I’m listening but there’s no sound

Isn’t anyone trying to find me?
Won’t somebody come take me home
It’s a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I don’t know who you are
but I… I’m with you

I’m looking for a place
searching for a face
is anybody here I know
cause nothings going right
and everything’s a mess
and no one likes to be alone

oh why is everything so confusing
maybe I’m just out of my mind
yea yea yea

Alex is released out today. Well, all of us go there to welcome him back. He changed a lot. Most probably because I didn’t visit him much during the day. That’s why I feel that he had changed. We go to George and Rose’s house to have dinner. I can’t believe that now Rose cooks better than me. Their son, Adam is really cute. I feel happy for them because from aftermath of the incident, they live. Alex spent his time in prison while I live a straight-line life.

We talk about the latest news and our future plan but most of it is about George and Rose’s plan for their son. Alex and I don’t even look at each other. However in a sudden, Alex tells us about his plan. He decided to go somewhere else but we don’t know where because he didn’t want us to know. From that moment on, I have the answer. I don’t want him to leave. I forgave him. But he already made up his mind.

I had to admit something. As we grow up, things start to change. Sometimes, I still wonder that it is just a dream. Josh is still by my side. I read back my own diary. I see moments with laughter, joy and pain. There are blank pages behind. What am I going to write? My past already affected me so much that I don’t even know whether I am still alive. Am I going to be happy? Time will let me know.

Today is the wedding day between George and Rose. They were dated for four years and they finally engaged. The night before the day, I conversed with Rose. She asked me what my plan is for the future. I don’t know either. The fact is, I still can’t forget Josh. I have a career now. I’m capable of taking care of myself. Maybe there is someone out there but I’m not ready.

Sometimes, we visit Alex together. However, it seems to be nothing for us to talk. Am I mad of him? I don’t know either. In the end, I start to avoid for the visit. Maybe I just feel nothing for Alex. He is now being punished and few years more, he will be released out. I probably just wait for the day.

Josh’s mum died. These few years, she was insane in the prison. She had been talking to the air. Most of the time, she was “chatting” with Josh. I can’t imagine how she felt after killing her own son and another was killed. I might become crazy too. May she rest in peace.

Josh is gone. Four of us are now gathered around but it is for Josh’s funeral. I can’t believe that he just leaves me like that. Something is not right. Before that, Ryan was missing too. I asked Dr Mel but nothing is wrong about Josh. I can’t stand it. First, Dad died. Then, Ryan was missing and now it is Josh’s turn. I must find out the truth. Josh isn’t a person who will end his life but now the letter is the only clue.

I feel pity for Josh’s mum. She barely eats in these few days. She locked herself in her room and cried all day long. I wish I can switch place with her because I can’t be weak. I have to take care of her. That’s why I didn’t cry at the funeral. However, one night, I heard Josh’s mum talking in her room. In a sudden, she just laughed. I got into her room and I saw no one except her.

Because of Josh, four of us have a chance to reunion. All of us changed a lot. I wanted to tell them about my relationship with Josh but then I didn’t do it. What’s the use to let them know now? Josh isn’t here anymore. Then, I started to think back Josh had once said not all of our friends will be glad to know about me and Josh. I wonder who. I suspect someone knew and that someone might be the murderer who killed Josh.