活在旋律中，我的音乐人生，烙印在这音符的日记。

总是戴上七彩缤纷的假发，
挂上笑容与每个人交流，
不断尝试进入别人的生活，
为他们添加欢乐，
然而，
是否我看不懂他们的表情，
写着“闲人免进”，
花心思用气球捏成小狗，
传递给他们的手中，
他们笑着，
转身，
却在懊恼要怎么处置这无聊的东西，
面对这一些问题，
再看看我的薪水，
值得吗？
回到家中，
脱掉假发，
卸妆，
看见镜子里的我，
原来，
我不曾因别人快乐而快乐，
怎么一回事呢？
不如这样吧，
辞职，
到别的地方继续寻觅另一片天空，
反正，
我不缺什么。

装快乐的小丑上。

Seems like everyone has his own ways to express or perhaps symbolize life using variety of things, things that might be so common to us that we just overlook and things that we might not come across for our whole life. However, everyone’s theory is right. No one is wrong because everyone is living in a different life. We are breathing the same air, drinking the same water, stepping on the same soil and using the same basic necessities. Every living person in this world is so unique that we can’t find the replica anywhere. So, why would us try to prove so badly that we are not the stereotypes? I mean, we AREN’T since we are born to this world.

So, how is a person’s personality is being formed or i could say, modified?

We are who we are. I won’t doubt this quote as some of our characteristics exist deep inside our soul that we cannot ignore no matter how hard we try. These characteristics lead us to make difficult decisions. The judgement would be based on our own thought. The scale is already in our mind. We hold on tight with our principles and we won’t let other people to neglect or we won’t even tolerate just a bit for the sake of everyone because we believe in our faith.

Then, as we grow up, the surrounding is changing gradually. This factor puts our own on a test. The divergent paths begin to appear in front of us. By just making one silly mistake, we walk into a dark tunnel. To get rid of it, we have to struggle with every strength. But, don’t ever think that we can just smile broadly when we see the light. The light may shines on us but we definitely will regret of what had we done in the past. The light turns to heat and we sweats the fear out of our body. Due to certain circumstences, we turn to a jerk. We are so afraid of the consequences of our action and hence we be the one who hurt people. We transfer the sadness to others and make their life miserable. Just as we think that we are so cool, the output malfunctions and direct the horrifying flow back to us. Our shield retreats and everything overwhelms. Soon, we lose all and only one thing is left, the mixed emotion which will replay ad infinitum for our entire life.

Of course, we are just human, only homo sapiens. We live our life just once. We cannot see or feel everything. So, tv-manga-novel fans might drop down everything and listen to me. See more drama. Enjoy more anime. Read more books. Make an effort to just see everything that appears when we click the button on the remote control. Why do i say so? Don’t just do the eye exercise, i mean, do some critical analysing brainwork. Look into the characters that we encounter. See how that particular character lives? What had he/she done? How his/her friends and family feel? Step into his/her shoes and try to feel the fictional world. We can learn many (i swear) stuff by doing it. Enhance our imagination skill. Then, we take out papers (recycled papers please, save the world) and write down the good and horrible things about that character. Certainly, we want people to like us, not hate us. Absorb the good personality like peter petrelli and cast away all the scary behaviours from us like the charmed one witch sisters. Imperfection is perfect. (Oh, i think i just write something different from what i just wrote.) Come on, no one is perfect. So, what is the point? Is it better if we continue to behave in good ways and hide the bad personality? No, we won’t get alter ego so easily, we are not jessica/niki. What is done cannot be undone anymore. Therefore, bury us deep into six foot under and breakaway from the pupa.

Lately, it is raining everyday and everywhere. My umbrella is ruined and Rihanna basically took mine and gave it to Jay-Z. What i’m trying to say is we might catch cold if we let the rain pours on us. But, isn’t life like this? The rain will stop unless you’re a big super die hard fans of Rain and you will just spam me. After the rain stops, sun shines, rain begins and sun shines. This is a repeating process for another 50 million years, as sun might die after that, thank god i’m not claire or takezo kensei, i will die one day, everyone will die one day.

Once in a while, we can see the rainbow. It appears and fade away beyond our control. Why not grab the timing in our fist and enjoy every breathe taken in? Erythrocytes are dying to take oxygen at the lungs.

In a nutshell (finally), to be the one who the world needs, we have to be the one whom we like. We can’t expect people to like us if at the first place we hate ourselves.

My principles:
1. Honesty is the best policy. (No harm if i keep some secrets of my own.)
- Filter every information i receive and pass on with accurate details. Never ever add on things that never exist or my opinions.

2. ZOPFAN. (No, i’m not showing off my PA.)
- Throw hatred away, Peace, dude. Do whatever my mind tells me, Freedom, buddy. If ever someone asks, i answer directly independent of any variables, Neutrality rocks.

3. Secret. (Not the whatsoever movie.)
- "I tell you but you cannot tell others." Screw it! I will only tell my brain neurons and i can 100% guarantee that they won’t sold me out. Unless sylar hunts me down.

4. Expectation is disappointment.
- Make sure i leave my expectation in my room, locked inside the closet. Thus, i will be happy-go-lucky because the outcome will be the sweetest sugar in the end.

5. Stick to my principles. (Ceh, non-sense.)
- Remember to follow every listed points. Don’t ever burn for three minutes and be supercoolant.

Five would be enough since the number "5" is the strongest amongst all. (Don’t ask me why, i just find out by watching ghost whisperer.)

So long, enjoy the year end, as if the year would end happily.